One last post...

I have been silent and away from this thing for some time and I owe you all an apology and an explanation...

I fucked up. Plain and simple. I made a mistake that I will regret for the rest of my life and lost the most important person in it. I let my anger get the best of me and said "fuck you, go to hell" to someone I swore I would never hurt. There is no pain greater than that which I feel right now. It pulses through me like lava burning my veins the way my love for her used to. It tears at my soul and bashes against my ribs, ripping me apart. I have said I was sorry and I cannot say it any other way. The worst part is that it is all my fault, dear readers. She loved me. She never said it, saving it like a gift that I had to earn, but i believe she did. I couldn't see past my own fears and insecurities to embrace that love. I wanted to hear it but I couldn't do what was necessary to earn that.

I hurt her again and again and she took it. She took it until she couldn't take it anymore and she gave up on me. If she only knew how I felt right at this moment. It probably wouldn't change anything though. It is too late. The most important person in the world to me is gone. She was my inspiration. She was my love. She was my life.

So, dear faithful readers, I am closing this blog. Everything in it reminds me of her and I just cannot take it. I don't know when I will write again. I don't know what the next few weeks, months, or even years will hold for me. I do know that I will never love another like I loved her.

I will be finishing Ishmael and I will be publishing it. I will post here one final time to let you all know where you can get it. After that, it is done.

Goodbye, dear, faithful readers. Please take care of yourselves and know that I truly enjoyed entertaining you.

-J.C.-

Today was...

Kind of rough, actually. I have been trying everything I know to get people to pay their bills. For those who do not know, until this writing thing takes off, I am working as a collections manager in a company that has the crappiest customers I have ever seen. They lie to me, avoid my calls with a passion, and when I finally do get them on the phone, they hang up on me when they find out who I am. If there is one thing that I really hate, it is to be hung up on. My boss is under a lot of pressure from his boss to get the money and I understand that so I am not mad, it can just be so stressful sometimes.

As far as the writing is going, I know I have been slacking a bit but I have been going through a crisis and I haven't really felt like doing a lot of anything. Do not despair, faithful readers. The crisis is over, for the most part, and I am finally getting my lazy ass back on track. I have just been under a lot of stress, partly from my job, partly from an unknown source of depression which has set upon me with a fiery fierceness. I  have never been one to give two shits about myself or what happened to me. That was, until I met Misu. She has done so much for my self esteem and made me such a better person that I cannot thank her enough. So, I should be able to finish all of my edits by the weekend and should have the book out for you by the end of next week. Trust me, I am as ready to get it out to you as you are to read it.

That is all for now, dear, faithful readers. Until next time,

Your faithful entertainer,

John aka Misu's Puppy.

I should really come up with more interesting things to say on this blog, I think.

I finished all of the minor edits today on the book and now all I have is a couple of scenes to write and then I will send it off to the wonderful people that have offered to give it a read over for me. When they get finished and I am sure it is up to par, off the the presses. Well, actually, it will be off to the computer where I can upload it, but you get the idea. =D

Other than that it has been a pretty uneventful day. I did find out that I have a bunch of computer games that I had forgotten about when I decided to give this writing thing a go full time and sat up until three this morning playing them. I am such a child, I know, but sometimes it does a soul good to get away from the real world for a while. Video games are my past time, what's yours?

Until next time faithful readers,

Thank you,

John aka Puppy

Tomorrow...

..... is going to be a very busy day, I think. I am going to be working very hard on getting this book finished and ready for you, dear readers. I will be balancing that with the interview with the great writer I was telling you all about. Whew! Even on my days off, I don't get a day off.

I have commissioned a few volunteers to read my new book and give me their perspectives on it. I hope that their contributions will be what I am looking for. It is actually a sweet deal for all involved. They get a free advance copy of my book and I get free reviews. Nice, huh?

The weekend is getting closer and it seems as though the days are dragging by. I am so incredibly excited and anxious to see Misu that I could explode right about now. I have a few plans for her and I think we will be able to get some things (mostly my hangups) resolved. We will see.

Until next time dear, faithful readers,
Thank you for your patience and encouragement.
John aka Misu's Puppy

I promise...

To have my book out by the end of July. I finally got it back from the editor and I have the entire day off Wednesday so I will be working my tail off to get it to you guys. I have read over the edits and and very pleased with the work he does and even more pleased at the ideas he has contributed to the book. So i am making a pledge to you, dear readers: The end of July or I will give it to you for free.

In other news, I am really settling into my new job. I am learning a lot and making very few mistakes. I like my boss and the people I work with and enjoy my job very much.

The weekend is coming ad you all know what that means. MISU!!!! Yes, I will be spending more time with my sweet, beautiful Misu and will have her all to myself. What does that mean for all of you? Unfortunately, it means that I will be posting very little here, if anything at all, and that I will not be working on any new stories unless inspiration absolutely clobbers me on the head.

So until next time, dear, faithful readers; Thank you!
You faithful entertainer,
John aka Puppy.

It's so close

I know I have been teasing you guys relentlessly about the release of my first book but I promise it isn't far away. In the mean time, I have contacted a great author and we are in the final stages of putting our heads together for the Q&A swaps. I will have his interview done and posted by the end of the week.

The non-smoking is going better than I thought it would. I figured by now that I would have gone on a rampage but I am still pretty calm. It helps to have a support system like Misu. One more positive influence she is making on my life.

This is going to be really short because I have a major headache and the glow of the screen is only serving to enhance my pain. So, until next time,

Thank you dear, faithful readers;
Your grateful entertainer,
J.C. aka Misu's Puppy

The first day...

of the rest of my life starts today. I have talked to Misu and I am going to work my ass off to accomplish, not one, but two amazing feats. I have been cheating with my smoking and, starting today, I am quitting, even if it kills me (irony?). I haven't had one all day and I have fought temptation tooth and nail, trust me. My mom smokes, so it is very difficult to say no when she is so willing to share her cancer with me.

I am also starting a very strict diet which Misu is helping me with as well. 1500 calories a day. Am I crazy you ask? Yes, a little. I am also determined not to die like so many others have, painfully. It is going to be hard and I know that it would probably be better to try to quit one then the other but I am a fucking lunatic and a masochist so I am going to attempt both at the same time.

In other news, I am in talks with a very good writer about swapping Q&A's. What that means, for those who do not know, is that I will be sending him a list of interview questions and he will answer them and send them, along with his own, back to me. Then we will post them to our respective social networking sites and blogs (like this one)  so that our fans (you guys) can get a better idea of who we are. Sound good to you guys? So look for that.

If any of you guys have any questions that you want me to answer, please send me an email. I love hearing from you.

Until next time dear, faithful readers:
Thank you,
John aka Misu's Puppy

Finishing touches

Well, I have sent my book off to my editor because, after someone very important to me said that it was actually really good, I decided that the side of me that is a perfectionist was the same side that was interfering with the progress of release. So I decided to go ahead and try to release it by the end of the week. I know that I keep saying this and things seem to keep getting in the way but I really think it is time. I just want it to be perfect for you guys and sometimes I may make hasty decisions based on my own insecurities. Fear not, faithful readers, for soon you will get it. i have set my deadline for the end of the week and I mean to keep it this time.

In other news, Misu is coming into town to see me today so I am so excited I could have an aneurism. I have found that after many years of feeling numb and emotionless, I actually do still have the ability to care for someone on a deeper level and to love someone other than myself (which I haven't really been able to do either). She has broken down the barriers that all of the others have built around my heart and for that, I thank her.

Until next time dear faithful readers...
Thank you,
Your faithful entertainer,
AKA Misu's Puppy

Just a bit longer.

So I have decided to put a hold on the book for a bit. I finished it and read it a few times only to be disappointed in what I had put down on paper. I know I said that it would be out today but unfortunately I cannot do that to you dear faithful readers. I must insist that I put out quality work for you or give up my dream of becoming anything more than just a penman.

So I am letting a few people read over it in an attempt to better it and get it ready for your consumption. I have a few friends that are kind enough to do this for me and they will be mentioned for it. Fear not dear readers, it is coming and I promise that I will be better than it is right now.

In other news. the new job is going well and I am extremely happy with it. I get to see some pretty crazy things in my job and I am sure that you guys will hear about a few of them in future, non-erotic books. Like this:
I work in a place that sells furniture and today my boss was almost crushed by a ton of mattresses. It... was... hilarious. A lady pushed them out of her way and they fell over onto him, nearly squishing him.

See? Well, I thought it was funnier and I am sure that when I put my spin on it, you will as well.

Until next time readers,
Thank you,
-Puppy-

What a week!

Well this has been a week, huh? I got a new job, I finished my book (which I will be uploading tomorrow, I hope), and wrote a new little short for you guys. It has been quite enjoyable. I have a lot of stuff going on right now, Misu has upped the ante  and given me more rules and what Misu wants, Misu gets as far as I am concerned. So I disn't get a chance to post yesterday. I was really tired due to the fact that I hadn't been getting much sleep the two nights before and I really hadn't done anything for you guys to be interested in anyway, so I took a break from this blog. Don't worry, it won't happen often.

The new short is called "Going Down?" and it is a nice little treat for any woman who wants to dominate a man and an especially savory treat for guys who, like I, LOVE being dominated by a strong, powerful woman. Yes, it is the very source of my arousal, for the most part. I love it when... well, never mind. Just read my story. It's free anyways. Get it on my smashwords page and keep reading my blog dear readers because when Ishmael comes out tomorrow, I will have a special treat for you guys, trust me. I might even give it to you for free, if you are nice.

Until next time, faithful readers...
_John aka Misu's Puppy-

Seriously?

I feel the need to address something (No Misu, not that) and since it is the only real outlet I have, I chose to do it here. I write erotic fiction. Call it trash, smut, porn (different category btw), whatever you want. I write about the thing that people think about more than anything else. So why, then, do you feel the need to talk down to me and say that I am less of a writer because of the genre I choose? Writing erotic fiction is no easier than writing any other type of fiction. There are still plot twists, characters, settings, dilemmas, etc., all of which have to be creative or else you will lose any chance of gaining/keeping your reader's attention.

We, as humans, think about sex all the time. It is in our nature. Why do we feel the need to hide our sexuality under a rock and not allow anyone to see it or even know that it exists? Why are we ashamed of the bodies that whatever god you choose to believe in gave us? Why are we ashamed of the most beautiful thing on earth, sexual intercourse? Why must be confined to only one partner? If that is your preference, then more power to you. In my opinion, however, one woman cannot give one man everything he needs, nor can the opposite be achieved. Some of are not happy settling for one person. Some of us need to be completely fulfilled.

There are so many questions and so few answers. I would love to hear all of your thoughts on these subjects.

For now, though, that is all.

Until next time dear readers, thank you for your continued support.
John aka Misu's Puppy.

Time to get back to work

Well, dear readers, I have had the greatest weekend ever but unfortunately, it is now over. I guess it's time to get back to work. So I will start my final edits tonight for you guys and I should have a finished product by the weekend. I am looking forward to you guys reading it, just as much as I hope some of you are.

It has been four days since I have had a cigarette and, to be honest, I don't really want one. I guess the three day thing is pretty true. I have heard that if you can last three days, then the hardest part is over. Thank you to those who supported me and continue to do so in my time of nocotinelessness (Did I just make up a word? Hell yes I did!).

I know that this is definitely one of the shorter blogs but I have nothing to really talk about. If you guys have questions for me, email me. I love hearing from you and will be happy to answer any of them that you have.


Until next time, dear readers, thank you.
John aka Misu's Puppy

WOW!

Dear readers, I lie not when I tell you that I have had the best weekend anyone could possibly have, ever. My weekend was spent with the most important person in my life. I had so much fun and I didn't over think my story (which I have been doing a lot during the past week) a single time. If you only knew, faithful readers, the way I felt about my Misu. I see why men have fought for their loves, died for their loves, and been to hell and back for their loves. I see what motivated Dante now. I didn't think I could ever feel this way about someone else after all of the crap that I have put up with and been through but, lo and behold, I stand corrected and bemused. I hate to see it end.

Nevertheless, it will soon be time to jump right back into that world of demons and everlasting love and start on my final edits. Sometime tonight I will be back at my laptop, typing away and hoping to send your brains on a wild roller coaster of suspense  and ecstasy. It may be the end of the week before it is ready for your approval but don't worry, it is on its way.

Until next time, dear, faithful readers, thank you for your constant support.
Misu's Puppy

Fantastic Weekend

I have had the best weekend that I have had in a very long time dear readers. I have spent it with my muse, my Misu and it has been indescribable. Yesterday we went to the park and got sunburned throwing the frisbee and having a picnic with a group of friends, old and new. Then we had a wonderful evening with most of those same friends. The only really bad part of this weekend is that is about to end.

As far as the book goes, I have had a great time getting away from that world but it will soon be time to jump back into it. I have a few final edits and filler to add to the story and then I will be putting the final touches on it and sending it your way.

That is it for now, dear readers. I still have a time balance on my Misu card and I want to make the most of that time.

Until next time dear, faithful readers.

John aka Puppy

Damn Weather

As anyone who lives in the southeast of the United States knows, we have been having a lot of storms lately which is why I couldn't post for you last night faithful readers. However, somehow I am still going to get punished for it, even though it was out of my hands. Oh well.

The book is finally finished guys, so I am taking a few days off to let it breathe and I will start my final edits on Monday. So it seems as though I will NOT make my deadline for the end of the month. However, it should be done next week and ready to upload. You guys would rather have a good product than a quick one, right? The ending is really giving me trouble so it may not stay the way it is. We will see.

I am in the middle of being fed chocolate covered strawberries by my Misu so I am going to cut this short.

Thank you, faithful readers,
J.C.

My first publication!

So I got an email last night and it appears as though my short "On the Hood" is going to be in a Canadian e-zine *cheers from the crowd*. I am super excited about this. If I am not mistaken, this means that I'm going international. When I submitted my work, I didn't think that it would get accepted and when I got the email, my mouth dropped wide open. It is a really good feeling knowing that your work will be read by people that are in another country.

Also, I as so close to finishing my book that I can almost taste it. I added some really great content that I hope you guys are going to absolutely love. I am sure that many of you are anxious to read my first novel and I am just as anxious to have you read it. I would love to be able to give away a few free copies and have you guys review them for me. That way, I get some free feedback and you guys get a book for free, that others will have to pay for. Sounds good, right? If you are interested, email me at authjcarter@google.com and I will put you on my mailing list. The first ten people to respond will get a free copy of my book to review (before anyone else gets to see it!) and the rest will be able to get a significant discount.

Lastly, my first anthology."Embraced by Shadows: Four Tales to Tantilize and Terrify" is now available on Kindle. So if you have one, why not check it out.

Until next time dear, faithful blog readers, thank you for your continuing support.

WELL!!

To start off today, I sleep in because I wrote for 6 hours last night. It was brutal. I just couldn't sleep (again!). My mind kept working, out all of the issues I was having my book and I wrote at least 3 chapters. Finally getting into the end of book. My villain has  the taken heroine hostage and there is a huge fight going on right now. Plus, one of my character has finally shown his true colors. Hopefully it will be a surprise and most of you won't be able to figure it out too early. I also wrote a scene that made me tear up a bit. I had to kill someone that I actually fell in love with during the process of creating them. Don't worry, It is important to the story.

In other news... I have a job interview on Thursday. WHOO HOO! I know you guys love my writing but until it takes off, I have to get a normal, everyday job. But don't worry, faithful blog readers, I will still be pumping out story lines for you, it just may not be in the chunks that I have been. Gotta pay the bills. :)

Finally, Misu got upset that I posted a quote on here from another author (guess she secretly loves me the most :-D), so I have decided to post one that I came up with last night. Here goes:

"If your story doesn't make you laugh, make you cry, turn you on, or scare you to death; It isn't worth finishing. I hope to write at least one that does all of these."

                                                                                            -John Carter-

Thank you for your time and interest dear readers.

Your faithful entertainer,

-Puppy-

A very Productive Sleepless Night

Well I met my goal of three chapters this weekend. Just barely. By last night I had a total of four chapters written so I decided to take a small break and let my story breathe. I wrote another piece and have already posted it on Smashwords for you guys. I hope you enjoy it. It seems to be doing well. I hope the trend continues.

I was up all night last night. I tossed and turned and just could not sleep. My mind kept going over my story again and again and it did not rest until it had all of the intricacies that it had been working on dealt with. I figured out tons of things about my characters and the way my story should go and I think that my lack of sleep may have been a good thing in that the ideas it produced will make this story a much better read. I hope to have it finished and ready for final edits by Friday and I hope to release it by next week. So look for it to come out by the end of the month.

Until next time faithful blog readers.

-Puppy-

So I didn't post yesterday (which I am sure I will pay for later, thank you Misu) bc..... well...... i forgot. Sorry. So much was going on that it just plain slipped my mind.

First off, I spent three hours cleaning my Aunt's house and made a few bucks. :) It was just in time, too, because I am looking forward to an awesome 2-3 day next weekend and I am so excited I don't know what to do with myself. Gas is expensive and, although the ones that care for you have no problem offering to help, I hate that they have to. Just because I don't have a car, doesn't mean that I can't chip in. Just so you all know, when this writing does take off, and I am sure that, if I am patient, it will, we are all getting wasted. Hehe.

Secondly, I have been cheating with my not smoking. Sorry, It's fucking hard. I used to smoke a pack a day, so I think that two or three a day is not best but much better. Plus, when I write, my mind gets blocked and smoking sometimes clears it. I write erotica. Some people need a cigarette after the have sex and when I write a really good scene, it is the same feeling. It gets me off and a cigarette is just the thing to top it all off. Luckily, I have orders that I am only to have one cigarette a day next weekend, so hopefully I can make that none. How much harder can it be right?

Now on to the new book. It is turning out so well. I have almost reached my goal of three chapters this weekend and the next few chapters are going really set the story in motion. I wrote for three hours last night to get to where I am and I am starting to fall in love with the story all over again. I am getting ready to introduce you guys to the villain of the story and I think you will really enjoy him. Hopefully you will hate him as well.

So, with all of that said. I leave you with one of my favorite quotes:

“The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn, like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars and in the middle you see the blue centerlight pop and everybody goes, Awww!”

-Jack Kerouac-

On to the weekend...

Today was kind of a lazy day, I guess. I have been trying to figure out new and exciting ways to promote my writing and myself. Last night I started a brand new book. I thought I would try my hand at demon erotica and see where it got me. I am currently very happy with how it is turning out.

The weekend has arrived and, just like my high school days, I will be spending it in front of my computer, alone. Unlike my high school days, I will be very productive... I hope. My goal is the get at least three more chapters done before Monday and I think that is a feasible goal. Shouldn't be too hard.

Day two of the smokeless endeavor is rearing its ugly head and I feel as if I am going to kill someone. Maybe it's time to write some violent short stories, huh? I like the Romance stuff because it gives me the chance to make the lives of my characters turn out the way that I wish my own romantic life would turn out sometimes but sometimes you just want people to die in horribly violent ways.

Sometimes...

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Until this writing thing takes of for me I must get a real job like most of America. So I looked for a job today and found out that everyone wants you to put you application in online. Maybe 5 out of the thirty people i talked to let me actually put in a paper application. Even Taco Bell and other fast food restaurants want you to do it. They say it is because they are trying to save trees and help the environment but I think it is because they don't want to have to tell you no to your face. Too many people flipping out and killing others over stupid shit I guess. Who knows. Not I.

In other news, I finished the final edits on another short story for you guys and wrote one that was inspired by someone very important to me. I am gonna post them as free reads on smashwords so you guys can get more of an idea of my erotic mind. Hopefully you guys will like it.

-John aka Puppy-